Chapter 15

Time to pause, reflect and review again….collect all thoughts, take decisions!

My husband had to move to another city, as a job requirement. I had to take the critical decision of either moving with him or staying in my city with the children? On one hand, my children would need their father to be around, and on the other hand I could not unsettle my daughter and ruin her future prospects. I thought of exploring the options in the new city, but they were not satisfactory at all…

Lord was kind enough to provide me with the company of a tough and wise nanny. She made it possible for me to cater to the varied needs of both my children. And I decided to stay back here with my children! I was blessed with wonderful friends, whom I could reach out to even at 4 a.m., be it about my son’s fever or my daughter’s health issues. I consulted with a homeopathic doctor who assured me to help my daughter with some of her ailments. Allopathic medications were brought to a minimum, as her panic attacks reduced in intensity and frequency! I began counting these peaceful days with gratitude….being thankful for each day that went well!
Kal kya hoga….kisko pata…abhi zindagi ka le lo mazaa!!!????

I always felt, that the more exposure a child gets, more challenges she faces and more learning takes place! In school she had already learnt to sit in a group and watch programmes in the assembly quietly. I started taking her to the movie hall. This had a few additional challenges….a lot of people in a new environment, the darkness, the loud audio and the movie would sometimes be difficult to follow or boring. Hence, we had to do a lot of planning before going for a movie and be ready with strategies during the movie!

Short holidays, picnics, visiting relatives in different cities were huge learning opportunities for my daughter as well as refreshing for my son and myself. These also helped the four of us to understand each other’s needs better, in different situations! Waiting patiently at the luggage check in, keeping calm in the security check queue, staying occupied during the flight were major skills which improved with practice. Learning to use washrooms in different houses and hotels was very challenging due to her sensory issues and unknown fears!
Each day brings with it many opportunities for each one of us to learn more….

I was chosen and accepted to join my daughter’s school as an educator, the same year my son entered the school! This was a fantastic privilege and a blessing indeed! It was also a huge responsibility to be enrolled in a big organisation and be able to deliver as per its expectations! Most importantly ‘self doubt’…will I be able to do justice to my role? Will I be able to balance my duties towards my own children and my students in school?
I took the decision to move forward and challenge myself further.

You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new- Brian Tracy