‘I know you my child, your thoughts, feelings, worries and fears….we too feel the same way! We too can’t always explain always a discomfort and the cause for it!’
She is different in her ways of expression, may not also understand the reason behind a situation or a particular behaviour. But her feelings are as genuine, as deep and as real!
If anyone speaks loudly or in a firm tone, she says, ‘he is shouting, I dont want to shout’.
Many a times during the day, she says ”mamma I want to do pyar”. Probably she means, “I was missing you or where were you?” Also at times, when she feels contented, she may want to do ‘pyar’. During Covid I had severe headaches, she could feel the pain and pressed my forehead without being asked to!
She looks forward to an outing after every few days, asks if she can visit someone ‘s home. Also wants to plan our next holiday before the present holiday gets over. What hotel can we stay in? What would be the menu of meals in that hotel?
I think, she gets bored of a routined life, wants to know, what new can happen and also wants to explore!
She doesn’t like a certain electrician or a carpenter inside the house. So she is seen keeping a watch on him, making sure he leaves our home after work. All she does is stands quietly at a distance and watches. Some kind of fear or insecurity, I guess!
On the other hand, she is comfortable in presence of our driver and has developed complete trust on him.
After a story or a chat and planning for the next day done, she will ask me to leave the room after giving me a hug, wanting her own space in her own room. Her mind is sorted about the role of each member in the family. Mamma for teaching her, brother for sleeping with her, didi for cooking food of her choice, nani for chatting and so on…
What amazes me the most is her unconditional love for her little brother. She feels highly secured with him and prefers him to sleep with him, holdinghis hand.
Now her brother is in 12th grade, getting ready to fly from his nest. We are trying to empower him and empower ourselves to be able to set him free for his growth and success in future.
We have faith in Almighty and in our upbringing that her brother will be there for her, he will surely figure out how to monitor his sister’s well being and to keep her safe, once we are gone….
‘Faith is unquestionng belief.’ Ronald Hopfer.
‘When you have faith in God, you don’t have to worry about the future. You just know it’s all in His hands. You just go to and do your best’. Elder Bryan Mathison
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Nivedita, most moving… Your perception is one thing, but the sincerity and simplicity with which you write makes it hit home so much harder. Bless you and each one of your loving family.? With love, Neelima ________________________________
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